Sometimes, all you can do is keep breathing. There isn’t much else to do.
You make a decision to go for it and you make another one to not go for it.
But there are constant moments when that little seed of doubt creeps in and makes you wonder. Should you have gone for it? Shouldn’t you have gone for that? Do you change your life as it is? Find something else?
How are you supposed to know? Are you ever supposed to know?
And all you can do is keep breathing.
Those tiny seeds of doubt branch out and grow into huge trees. Even sprout leaves. And you take a deep breath because it doesn’t matter whether a storm is coming. You don’t mind. There might just be some fruit at the end of it all.
It’s very easy. All you have to is to close your blinds.
You want to change the world; you want to be more than you are right now. You take a deep breath.
Instead, you sleep.